February 2012
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The ghost of GAB
An empty hallway on GAB 3rd floor.
I'm alone here. Leaning against the door.
The defeaning silence is killing me.
I'm about to lose my sanity.
I closed my eyes and I felt a shudder.
I heard a thump coming from somewhere.
Footsteps crescendo. It's fast approaching.
I opened my eyes but there was nothing.
I stood up quickly and tried to run
But a cold hand stopped me and held my...
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When you arrive at a roadblock, take a detour.
I’m lying on my bed and my mind is spinning around.
I’m trying to think of words but I’m simply zoning out.
I have a really really really bad feeling.
It’s like I’m about to lose everything.
I’m going mad and I’m about to lose it.
I’m about to say, “Hey life, I quit!”
And I’m not making sense at all.
I just know that I’m about to fall.
Fall through the cracks and holes I’ve made.
In a crazy...
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I swear this time I mean it.
Here goes whatever.
This is just another dramatic monologue my brain is keeping me awake with. And it’s really happening to me. This isn’t one of those make-believe writings that I have made. Nope. This time I assure you that everything I’ll be writing here is the truth (or what my mind perceives as the truth).
I know some of you might be experiencing something much worse than...
January 2012
9 posts
So it seems like nobody is willing enough to save...
Who needs love?
writingisloveasdfghjkl:
“Everyone does. You can’t go on living in the world without love. I mean, it doesn’t always have to be the romantic kind of love. There’s Philia. Yes, love isn’t safe and it can be really painful sometimes. Then again, who survives without it? It’s a mystery really. Love. It kills you yet it’s one thing that keeps you alive.”
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He was always there
to catch me when I fall. But
what if he falls too?
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From my facebook note. :) (written a few days ago)
As usual, I don’t know where to start. But at times like these when I suddenly get that certain urge to write anything (And I mean anything! However, random it may be.) I just couldn’t stop myself.
A thousand words come to mind but I don’t know how to put them into logical sentences. I don’t want to just throw in random lexicon and hope that you would understand what I mean. Not that I...
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You speak of words that
I never could hear myself
utter. I hate you.
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It's not always one-way
I close my eyes.
And then my lips curve up.
Sweet laughter escaped my mouth.
I hear his voice.
The lullaby that I always long for.
My heart can only follow the rhythm of his music.
However, I have to realize that…
The harmonious heartbeats last only for a moment.
Defeaning silence surround me.
I feel his absence.
A deep loud sigh travelled through me.
And the curve slowly turns...
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Everyone was having a lot of fun that nobody noticed how fast time flew by. And before we knew it, vacation’s over. BOOM. Classes resume tomorrow. Many of us would have to cram for all that we have procrastinated on during the holidays. And although our body clocks have not yet fully recovered, we must and should do our best. So to anyone who’s having the same worry I am having right...
December 2011
18 posts
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Too soon that it's too late.
I wanted to talk to you.
I wanted you to listen to me.
But you wouldn't.
I wanted to tell you things.
I wanted you to hear them first.
But you have no time.
I wanted to say how much I miss you.
I wanted you to feel the same.
But you don't.
I hate myself.
I hate being fragile.
I hate being gullible.
I hate being stupid.
I hate being vulnerable.
I hate being truly madly deeply in love.
I...
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People are always
making me feel like I am
forever alone.
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“How can I be so happy now that I have one more person I’m scared of...”
– Faster Than A Kiss
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And everyday I
know that I love you more but
it just feels so wrong.
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I’m still longing for your touch.
I’m aching to hold on to you.
I wish that day I last saw you I took the chance.
Oh if only I had enough courage to do that.
Your stay was too short.
You didn’t even say good bye.
And now I miss you more than I could ever miss anyone.
I want to talk you.
I want to know how you’re doing.
I pray that you’re okay.
How I want to...
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I love you.
I love you more than I love sleeping.
I love you more than I love the moon.
I love you more than I love chocolates.
I love you more than I love writing.
I love you more than I love myself.
But this just isn’t right.
We don’t deserve each other.
I don’t think we ever will.
We’re meant to be just friends and that’s that.
Yes, we are friend-zoned.
...
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I wish I knew the secret to making him fall in love with me.
The art of trolling
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I’m supposed to be
studying but here I am
tumblring. Haha!
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This notebook is for you. I will write and write and write and keep on writing in it for you. And somehow someday (given enough courage) I’ll give it to you so that you will realize how important you are to me. For now, I’ll keep it and pour my love in it. And sooner or later it’ll seem like a representation of my heart. And when you finally receive it; that would be the day...
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Jealousy and Disappointment. A perfect match.
I've planned not to sleep, once again.
I'm planning to get my feelings
heightened for tomorrow (or later?).
I just want to feel an extreme sadness for a day
so that it'll be over when I finally get some sleep.
I'm jealous.
I'm disappointed.
But I've got no right to be.
I'm nobody.
Funny how tears are starting to form on my eyes as I type.
And I ask myself, "Why?"
I dunno.
I don't want to risk...
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My imagination is, once again, taking me to places I’ve never seen. It is at nights like these that I hope you would run away with me. Take me away to a place I’ve never been in. Take me to your world. Make me believe that you are real.
November 2011
39 posts
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*In my...
Mistakes, realizations, awkwardness…
Everything’s becoming more vivid.
My heart, my mind, my soul…
On to that moment I’m reminded of.
Reasons, answers, lessons…
You will remain *.
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Sheez. What the hell was I thinking? I shouldn’t have hoped for something as dreamy as that. I was but a damsel in distress. To think that somebody even told me something like, “He’ll save you. You’re a good girl.” Lies! Stupid lies. So what if I was good? He’d never save someone like me. I will rot in this place. Oh how it perfectly fits my pathetic life.
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Goodbye
I'm desperate
for a companion.
I'm getting sick
of being alone.
But then a part of me tells me,
"As if anyone would be willing
to stay with you."
So I stop looking
for someone to be with me.
I just start to pretend
that everything's alright.
And a lot of people actually fall for it.
Nobody had seen through the act.
That's why nobody ever suspected
that it was I...
the one who wrote
that suicide...
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A song for the moon.
A song for you too… since you
have gone too soon, love.
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I wish you were here.
But then again, I’m better
off without you, dear.
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Hold me in your arms
squeeze me tight and whisper in
my ears, “I love you.”
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I trusted you and
all along you were lying
to me. I hate you!
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And I dreamt of you
last night when the wounds you left
were still fresh. It hurts.
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I keep on hoping that things will get better in...
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She’ll listen to you.
If only you can promise
that you’re woth the risk.
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Indeed...it was suppression of freedom of speech.
A sudden rush of hatred flowed through my system. Oh how easy it is for my mood to change. I was so ecstatic a while ago but now I’ve gone mad. Not crazy mad. I think you know what I mean. I hate everybody as of now. I tried to tell people what I feel but they stopped me. I feel like my voice has been taken away from me. And so I start to write. But sooner or later… this too will be...
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I'm happy to know that I can make you laugh.
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Pure Bitterness.
I am no option. I’d rather be last than second best. I’d rather be hated than be loved when she is not around. I’d rather feel melancholic knowing that we’re never meant to be than be euphoric with false hopes of things that could only happen in my dreams. I don’t like mediocre. I go for extremes. It’s either solitude or beatitude. Nothing in between. I...
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I wish I could travel through time and tell you...
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Oh God, please don't make me fall for his...
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Worst day to be sick.
I’m supposed to be in school.
I should be GC!